April 23rd 2015, I turned 22 years old, and even though that isn't old at all, I feel like I had some sort of crisis on that day.
My birthday was a lovely day don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to have a loving family and friends and for everything that I have, but it got me thinking, "When am I going to feel like a 'grown up'?" so to speak. When will I feel like I can handle myself, be completely independent and like my life is going in the right direction?
The honest answer is, I don't think anyone ever feels totally like this.
I'm constantly crippled by the fear of failing, even with small things, failing at small tasks makes me feel like a failure, like I can't do anything right, so much that I avoid doing anything risky, just because if I don't try, I can't fail.
Which is true, if you don't try, you can't fail, but if you don't try, you also can't succeed.